fila4me
Well-Known Member
a little over a 2 weeks ago I noticed a pulling on the left side of my face. also, that the left side of my mouth had little movement. this past sunday I felt a small lump under my left ear, just above where my cancer was 4 yrs ago. I called both of my oncologists on Monday and had a head ct on Friday. followed up with one of my oncologists in the afternoon. he said, that it is a tumor and more than likely my cancer is back.
I have a full body ct Monday morning, see my ent surgeon the 2nd of July for a biopsy and to schedule another dissection!!! I then go back to my oncologist on the 8th for all of the results and to set a plan of action.
I am freaking the fuck out!! I am not telling my kids(4 and10)until I know for sure. if it is benign, I will not tell them. my 10yro has been thru so fucking much in her little life,not sure how much more she can handle without losing her shit! she lost her Papa in june 2007, my Nana Nov. 2008, my mom April 2009, a new baby brother in Dec. 2009, my cancer April 2010-June 2011 and my dad's recent passing on Easter. my 4yro will be a hand full for everyone if I get as sick as I did last time. he is such a momma's boy.
having such a hard time wrapping my head around this! on top of being strong for the kids.
I could scream and beating the crap out of something would be nice, lol!
on top of everything, I am so, so tired!
I have a full body ct Monday morning, see my ent surgeon the 2nd of July for a biopsy and to schedule another dissection!!! I then go back to my oncologist on the 8th for all of the results and to set a plan of action.
I am freaking the fuck out!! I am not telling my kids(4 and10)until I know for sure. if it is benign, I will not tell them. my 10yro has been thru so fucking much in her little life,not sure how much more she can handle without losing her shit! she lost her Papa in june 2007, my Nana Nov. 2008, my mom April 2009, a new baby brother in Dec. 2009, my cancer April 2010-June 2011 and my dad's recent passing on Easter. my 4yro will be a hand full for everyone if I get as sick as I did last time. he is such a momma's boy.
having such a hard time wrapping my head around this! on top of being strong for the kids.
I could scream and beating the crap out of something would be nice, lol!
on top of everything, I am so, so tired!